God Wants This One Thing From You

You might be feeling lonely right now because God actually wants alone time with you. 

Have you ever thought of that before? This is a really difficult time of year for so many people. Maybe you’ve lost a loved one and you’re grieving, maybe you had a falling out and you’re still mad, maybe you just are physically alone. But in those moments of loneliness, you are never alone. God is with you and He wants time with you. 

When I lost my baby on October 27th, I was physically alone (my husband Mike was in Texas) but I felt so emotionally alone too. The doctor gave me my ultrasound results like I was just another check up. And while I was bawling, she looked confused and offered no warmth. I was only 2 months pregnant but I had loved that baby with every ounce of my soul. Miscarriage is weird too because instead of grieving a past with someone, you’re actually grieving your future without them.

When I got into the car to drive home, alone, from that appointment, I tried to call Mike but he was on the plane to Texas and his phone was off. So then I called my mom but she didn’t answer. And then I turned to the one I should have gone to first – God. 

Looking back, I believe God orchestrated that moment where I would be alone and lonely so that I could lean on Him. I turned on STAR and Zach Williams’ song Sunday’s Comin’ was on and this is the line I heard:

So let your soul start singing and dry those tear-stained eyes

There’s a new life and you can breathe in

You’re gonna see the light on the other side

Keep on holdin’ on there’s gonna be a breakthrough

Keep on holdin’ on

Don’t stay buried in that grave

If He can roll the stone He can send the darkness runnin’

Might feel like Friday but your Sunday’s coming.

God was talking directly to me through those lyrics. He bundled me up in His kind, loving arms and He let me know that He loves me and that He loves my baby. And if that baby couldn’t be on earth with me, there is literally no better place for that baby than to be with Jesus. And after I spent my long drive home with God, He was able to surround me with other people to help take care of me too. Friends and family brought me food and distractions. 

But first I had to be alone and lonely with Jesus. So that He could minister to me the way I needed to be, so that He could put together my broken pieces and so that He could fill me up with His truth and love before another human did. 

If you’re lonely right now, I feel very strongly that that’s because God wants to fill that void instead of you filling it yourself. So ask Him to. He is so faithful. 

He always has our best in mind. He loves you and I know that He loves me. Which is why I trust that He knew best that this baby belonged with Him.

But wow is that a hard place to get to. And I need to remind myself daily of that truth. Somedays feel dark and sad but God is faithful to bring the light in. And that’s true for all situations. Promise.

Kristen James

Midday Show Host, STAR 99.1


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  1. Fortune Coratti on December 28, 2023 at 1:58 pm

    Wow Kristen, Amen to that! Thank you and may God Bless you!

    • Kristen James on January 2, 2024 at 1:49 pm

      Thank you Fortune!! And God’s blessings on you!

  2. Eneida Aymat on December 28, 2023 at 2:13 pm

    My dear Kristen,
    So sorry for your loss! I am glad to hear that you were able to see God’s love and his assurances through this most loneliest of times and that you were able to share this with us, is a beautiful testament of your faith. Thank you!

    • Kristen James on January 2, 2024 at 1:49 pm

      Thank you Eneida! He is so good to us to be able to use all our pain for good.

  3. rosa on December 28, 2023 at 4:32 pm

    Thank you for this beautiful encouraging message regarding feeling alone. I know the holy comforter is with me and I’m never alone 👏🏾✝️

    • Kristen James on January 2, 2024 at 1:50 pm

      Amen! Never alone!!

  4. Denise Searchwell on December 28, 2023 at 6:28 pm

    Beloved I can feel your pain but I have to say but GOD. The fact that you can share this testimony in such a short space of time is a testimony of the relationship that you have with Almighty God. Only He could bring peace to allow you to face this loss. My prayers are with you and your family. Keep holding on to God’s unchanging Hands. God will restore. Keep basking in His love. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 ((hugs))

    • Kristen James on January 2, 2024 at 1:51 pm

      Denise thank you so much! I was thanking God for that too because a past version of me might not have had the right amount of faith to go through this experience. So I’m so thankful God builds up our trust in Him so that when trials hit we can stand firm <3

  5. Marilyn Hansen on December 28, 2023 at 9:01 pm

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Your story mad me cry. Thank you for the song and encouragement for when things feel like there is no light I remember that Jesus is always there and has a plan for me, and for you.
    He knows best and doesn’t make mistakes.
    God bless you and be well.

    • Kristen James on January 2, 2024 at 1:52 pm

      Thank you for sharing that Marilyn! He doesn’t waste our tears! Not one! You are not alone!

  6. Christine Dahlgren on December 31, 2023 at 3:36 am

    Dear Kristen,

    Although I cannot relate to the pain of a miscarriage with you, my soul has felt pain & darkness very deeply. I know how deeply His love reaches when ww need it. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. God will use it to help bring healing to another woman when she finds herself in the same situation.

    • Kristen James on January 2, 2024 at 1:52 pm

      Amen, God is so faithful to us in every painful situation! Thanks for sharing Christine!

  7. Mike Manganiello on February 6, 2024 at 1:58 pm

    Hi Kristen , in regards to the caffeine which you just mentioned on air, try replacing a cup of coffee with a cup of bone broth. You still get that hot beverage ritual. And you’re getting awesome nutrition. One cup has only 40 cal and has 10 G protein.

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